"Faith is taking the first step, even if you can't see." - Martin Luther KingI’t’s
been a maze. Lost somewhere. Last summer
I could stand, maybe shuffle. But now. Now I can walk. Not with a stumble and a lurch, but with the
somewhat hesitant moments of something familiar. Something I had forgotten. Something I am re-learning. In
my world of the labyrinth, that has been
my place.
This
time last year I was crippled beyond my
understandingIt became apparent when I stood at the bottom of an escalator
not able to get my feet to move onto the moving stairs. I was frozen. People
behind me. Waiting. Some impatiently. Some wondering what I was going to do. I
wondered myself back then.
Now
I walk. Not perfectly. Not as fast as I would like. But some day. Somehow, I
will be fast as the wind. Nevertheless. I can walkIn
my mind, I can run….. I have two Hinge prosthetics holding me together in
both legs. Like Viking swords. Like Klingon Bat’leths. I think I’m finally ready for that Star Trek convention……
I
was like a thousand piece puzzle put back
together with super glue. I can walk. I
marvel. At last. You have no idea. I can
play piano again, climb stairs, and our hill to see mountain sunsets. Simple things, I know. Not
earth shattering. But exciting for me. Like I’ve never walked before. Things
you take for granted till you can’t do them at all. My world had become so small. I was trapped in this labyrinth, this maze I didn’t
not ask to be held in Now I’m free
again.
Today
I challenged myself. Maybe not a great one to you, but to me a huge one. I
planted five pots of sweet peas. Count them. Five. Something
I have not done for years. In the past, I had to get others to do all the
planting. Today I poked my fingers in the dirt and pulled out worms. They
wriggled and jiggled. I was just a little wobbly. Like the worms. But not much.
I stood my ground. I love the dirt and the worms and Seeds.
In
the cold of early morning, I did it
myself. I’m thinking of another
challenge… planting pumpkin and cucumber seeds
on the hill. I hadn’t gone up to the hill for at least three years. Till
now. Yes, I know, NOT exciting. But there will be worms. I like worms.
First I could stand. Now I can
walk. Wonders will never cease. And it’s all about wonder. Watch me. I
found the way out of my Labyrinth. What’s
out there?
"A labyrinth is a symbolic journey...it is a map we can walk on, blurring the difference between map and world...." -Rebecca Solnit
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